alone and angsty

although i have tried to make my posts cheerfully irregular tidbits (or tibbits, as i like to call them, because tibbits is basically the most awesome word invented, EVER) it was inevitable that at some point in this blogs life i would write angsty post, and then try to rationalize my sin with meta humor, and then almost fall into an eternal apologist loop, only to break it by going into a descriptive that is not just confusing, but mostly incomprehensible to anyone reading it besides me. anyway, I'm sitting in my house at 9 at night, feeling slightly sorry for myself. i would have gone to my martial arts class, except its on break, which i didn't realize until AFTER id walked 2 miles to get to it. then i walked 2 miles home, and this. shutting up now.